Oh man, It has been far to long.
So.. who's up for a recap?

turned 21.

Lost 180lbs. WOOO! (thinking i may do another "Skin Of Nails" when i get a decent camera, i don't know if anyone remembers that but its been a while and I would like to finish it.


Spent the last year or two -ish, floating around in a drunken-stoned state, that was fun. Didn't do a hell of alot for my creative side, but then again it did alot for my opinion of humanity as a whole.

Explored the other side of relationships, being you know not being incredibly overweight and extremely self concious about everybody's opinion on me. Went to bars, met loose women, met some amazingly captivating and exotic women, went crazy for all of them, almost every single time.

Decided I need to finish school, because I'm 21 now, when i was 17 i was well on my way to an early start at a good career and now I am.. a stagnant pile of uneducated disaster.

Moved back to california, because well my father isn't doing so great. his kidneys are failing and he is on dialysis everynight from about 7:30pm to 5:30am. takes a lil bit to set up and its becoming increasingly difficult for him to do himself. Not to mention the extensive nerve damage from the diabetes over the last 30 or so years has rendered him unable to walk for long amounts of time.
on top of all of that the dialysis solution is dextrose loaded so his blood sugar is a huge issue, combined with a delicious ( sarcasm ) renal diet it really limits the amount and types of foods he can eat, so i cook.. and I'm not terrible at it but you know.. its diffucult with.. no salt, so added sugar, low fat, no dairy, high protien, low meat, no sugary veggies or fruits.


Aside from all that i am doing well, my health for once in my life in above average.
I try to run everyday, though sometimes i don't but fuck it i lost alot of weight i deserve a couple days of fat-assery.

mentally and spiritually, it's a constantly evolving progress, this whole "not eating to deal with my insanity" really is diffucult, beleive you me.

I'll try to post more, been writing more again which is good.

985 deviations wish me luck!

namsate
albie.